Wednesday, November 11, 2009 :
your heart starts to wonder.
last friday had npsu meeting followed by a short astro activity. went home feeling not so good.the bro inc. called for a late night supper over at ameen.so bert picked me up and with val and russ we went ameen for supper.talked and chilled for a bit before we hit irc for some dota action.playing there with them was great. could see the anticipation of bringing down the throne and the shouting from val.had fun that night. homed at 4am close to 5 i think.
slept through my saturday morning to wake up to go for team bonding day in school. had fun with the people i havent seen in the longest time of my life.lewis drove me and jo to kap for our supper before head home to chill for a bit. met buddy at town,freaking traffic jam swarmed down orchard road. we bused down to PH for whoop whoop. i dont know,i think i was high on the king's drink.smoked like nobody business. i know got to cut down. slowly but surely. overslept in the bus,homed at 7.
slept through my sunday only to wake up at 4pm. was suppose to meet wenxing and shah to head to geseho which opens only on sunday. i guess i have to head there this coming sunday. its on sale.i heard the tees are dope man. so met val and all for dinner over at amk hub then for lulians nearby. slacked and talked before making our way home at 9plus.
mondays always suck to the core.lessons at 9am with maths test in the afternoon just makes the day worse.maths was difficult,obviously and my numbers and calculations really cannot make it.so after school went home and fuck i was early home and my door is locked.meet up with wenxing at queenstown as he went to alter his stuff at his aunty shop.just behind my block.we head over to queensway for dinner.
yknow i never really wanted to say all those words towards you.it hurts for you to listen and it hurts even more for me to say.i never wanted to be a disrespectful person like all those kids out there neither would i wanna be someone whom appears in your worst nightmare.i know in the fit of anger,i just have to shout and be dissapointed at your actions.but what i say dont really meant it,do i? what you have been doing is too much and i can never take in anymore.every human have their limits and i just reached mine.i see how selfish you people can be.always complaining,always talking big,always saying good things about other people and comparison which never eloped.yknow what, fuck them all.so what if other people son and daughter are fucking good,so what they always get good things for their parents,so what if my father is not like theirs.why kp so much.if you have to be so jealous and always say so much fucking good stuff about other people son.please and go be their mother.i see how we dont interact much,i see how much you love them more than you love me,i see how you always compare me with other kids.i dont really care.i am myself and this is how i was brought up with a dad by my side.yknow what i dont give a flying fuck.i never wanted much,all i wanted was fairness on how you treat your children.fucking screw it la.you always say things which arent reasonable to me,it doesnt make sense neither it sounds logical.you think your family is so good?you listen to someone who isnt even in your family and you make judgements.please fucking judge me.i dont give a damn.so much for being a family.you get me into trouble,you say you wouldnt care,you talk big but why do you still care.it irritates me so much.whatever you did i never really brought it up.i never really complained.but its just fucking too much.everyday you have to complain about something,everyday somewhere somewhat will not be right.what do you want me to fucking do.beat my own mother.i fucking hate the older generation,call me naive,i dont give a flying fuck.whats the problem with the generation gap.fucking cb.
sorry its abit angsty.just have to type it out.it will better in the days to come.lessons at 9am.gotta hit the bean bags.goodnight and have a great week ahead.
heartfelt at 12:06 AM
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