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Sunday, May 31, 2009 :

Mannan's Eighteen.




Eighteen :D



here i am once again.time to update about the birthday.but i would like to thank all who wished me through smses,fb,tagboard,phone calls and personally.thanks guys.meet up with the guys over at raffles city thai express for lunch.they bluff me they no money buy cake so they bought subway cookie.lols!ate black pepper chicken rice which is damn good man.after we all finished,i was shocked when the staff brought out a cake.and they sing birthday song again.and i have to make the 3 wishes again.lol!the cake is really really good.camwhores,paparazzi and we are off to esplanade.

on the way to esplanade,they outcasted me.strangers all kept looking at me cause i had a birthday crown on my head and 2 pink balloons.how sexy.we did crazy things on the way there.hilarious man.

at esplanade,it was my first dare.to eat 18 green WASABI peas one shot.if you guys ever tried it,i swear its gonna sting ur nose and throat.a lil bit of advice,dont close your mouth.i think theres a video on fb.check it out.so walk walk and its my next dare to take photos with 18 girls.at esplanade dont have,so we went over to marina square.caught photos with a few and its not easy approaching them.fear of rejection.lols.so bus-ed down to town.

on the bus is where my next dare is.sing a solo birthday song on the bus.sweet.the bus is like quite packed.wah cui.so i sang and everybody looked at me as if im crazy.oh wells.part of being 18.

met up with jia yong and wai cheong over at cine.continue with my dare.taking photos.when its done.they wanna tear my underwear(boxers) in CINE.that one i really really scared.like so damn embarassing,so i plead and plead and they let me off.phew.next dare was eighteen pumping in the middle of cine.my birthday like kana embarass only,oh wells.got it over and done with.then some random guy came up to me and asked if it was my birthday and offered a handshake.haha,it was his dare.camwhore camwhore.

we went over to cathay to meet phoebe and xiao ting.and phoebe was telling us her encounter with a random guy.she sound so aunty when angry.haha!and its my next dare.go into starbucks,and shout:

mannan:"hi everybody my name is mannan and today is my eighteen brithday!!!"
public:*looks and ponders and stares and silence*(cold situation)
mannan:"uhh thanks you!"(quickly walk out)
public*claps and claps and woo*

thanks wai cheong for that dare.cui again.we lepak lepak awhile and go off.all i can say is that it had been a great eighteen for me.thanks people.its pictures time :DD


thanks wman :D

and russell said:hello!!happy birthda ya

me:haha

russ:now 18 already

me:thanks man

russ:dont anyhow fuck around

me:lols,18 can go geylang meh?

russ:dont wanna hear you having herpes or anything

me:i mean legal already?

russ:dont forget can go jail.ya 18 legal already

me:lols



my second time making brithday wishes.


sorry bout the face,its effort.



and the la ji with the cake.



the ham sum guys.



the lagi ham sum


pink balloons <3



outcasted. :(


Sneak Peek of 18 girls or more. :D





THANKS GUYS FOR EVERYTHING :DD


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18,im finally legal bitches.

hello world,im eighteen.im starting to enjoy being 18 now.haha!i will update on the happenings today another time when i get all the pictures. so i take this oppportunity to thank all those who wished me regardless through facebook,msn,smses and even phonecalls.thank you all very much.it has been a great day i can say,i look to more birthdays to come.as of today,im a new man with 3 wishes i made,im out to smile and be happy always.cheers. :D

-something brigthen up my day,
i thought it was the end,
perhaps one last time.


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Thursday, May 28, 2009 :

oh why.

hello.
a few things that never stop bothering me throughout the day.
why do we still care about people when they dont even care about us.
why do we still think about them when we never existed in their thoughts.
why do we make our life so miserable to ponder about all these.
why do we still deny the truth rather than accepting them willingly.
why do we even hope when theres nothing awaiting us.
enough said.
its friday,school at 9am.
goodnight world.


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Wednesday, May 27, 2009 :

let the past be the present.

where are you guys.

i went home awfully early today.it feels kinda weird going home so early on a school day.usually would be home around 9 or even 10.bus rides alone makes me think of the times i had with people whom i used to share joy,laughter,sadness and everything with.now it seems so distant,feels so alone.i think work and school is making us distant.perhaps it all starts from me.from this short experience i had,i learnt a lesson.the girl you like will never be there for you forever,but great friends/brothers will be there for you anytime,anyday,anywhere.i wish time could turn back and save me from the present.sighs.hope things get better.oh wells,im not looking to my 18.bye.


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Tuesday, May 26, 2009 :

i will try not to think about you.

my fav shot.



tuesdays are the best days of the week.its one of the few days i dont have much things to do.went back to school in the morning for extra fm classes.went to get my laptop up with proe wildfire.need to do tutorials soon,if not there would be another mountain next to everest.went over to sp to buy the tees.coolshit man.went looking around,and ate foodcourt 6 which is totally(inserts negative words).went back to school for intensive gyming and npsu meeting at 6pm.am gonna be participant in the upcoming camp.oh wells.oh yeahs,nerly lost my phone.





i think its time i settle down,
and stop chasing,
cause it seems that,
i never caught up with anything.
im tired,
of denials and rejectons.
if rejection is part ofgrowing up,
then im afraid to grow up.
goodbye my almost lover,
goodbye my hopeless dream,
lets bring back the mannan we used to know.
lets laugh and scratch our backside in the rain. :]

-there would be a day when we all fall,

and never to see the world smiling.



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oh wells.


the last astro camp.

in a blink of an eye week 6 arrives.how tired i am of doing same ol' routine makes me dread to school.same old faces,same old words and same old excuses.gosh,how bad can it get.not looking forward to anything.common tests are racing towards me and projects are being procrastinated.time to buck up.hopefully i get through the week smoothly.extra lessons at 10am,time to hit the sack.sighs :/








i know someday you will have a beautiful life,
i know you will be a sun in somebody else's sky,
but why cant it be mine.


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Sunday, May 24, 2009 :

Felt it,been there,done it.



the past 3 days had been really tiring for me.my days was well spent over at AOC leading a group of crews.its my first time and i hope i did okay.it has been a great experience for me.i learned alot from the camp and i will never forget these lessons.the only thing that i had to do alot is tanking the comm.how sweet.the only difference between FOC and AOC is that i lead a group of friends rather then strangers.its a different kind of thing.we did a great job in the nightwalk,and i am confident to say that it is one of the best i ever had.although it was a bit dissapointing at some point but still two thumbs up.actually wanted all the crews to do a great skit.if only we had more free time to talk about skits.am abit dissapointed but its alright.thus,i would like to thank all the crews for all the help they rendered and really making the nightwalk a success.thank yous.

my apologies to aizat and co. as your station got cancelled,am really sorry.thanks for trying your best to prepare for it.and to all the crews if i ever raised my voice at you guys or being a bitch at camp.Crew Is Cool!cheers :D


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Wednesday, May 20, 2009 :

one picture speaks a thousand words.


when i take a look through the FOC 09/10 days,
it never stops me from looking back into memories,
so much,so many that i will never ever forget it,
the friends and company i made,
the smiles of the freshies,
which turn to friends,
the greater relationships of our counterparts,
and the happiness FOC had brought,\
tears never fail to flow,
although its just pictures,
and pictures does speak a thousand words,
so as i move on with time,
i will never ever forget every single moment,
and never will ever i leave those memories behind.
i miss FOC 09/10 terribly :(
time please stop and rewind.


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Sunday, May 17, 2009 :

fucked up.


a beautiful day that turn to be fucked up.had to go back to go school just to get fucked by friends and had to stay till evening to do props.sighs.missed my neighbour's wedding.how dissapointing.oh wells,life is all about choices aint it.a new week is about to begin.how i wish time would stop for abit for me to chill for a while.this sucks man.tomorrow dinner with vitamins.have a great week ahead peeps.oh week 5 bring it on.

-i want to be your greatest hello and worst goodbye.



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the 50s,the present.



its 4.37 am on a busy sunday morning still awake.just finished a game of dota with wai cheong with the game filled with so much conflicts.lols.pause game = buay song.HAHA!i havent been doing anything productive except for killing my braincells with excessive dota.gonna turn nerd someday.

stayed home all day on a beautiful saturday.had to go for engagement ceremony just behind my block.dont ask me why its under the block,ask tradition.since im on tradition,i really cannot accept the older generation thinking.i mean we are living in an era where things are better and have moved on with time.so i dont know why i still do get blamed for something which i am doing for the better of people.gosh.i still respect tradition but i do hope it doesnt get worse.

anyways,am gonna have a long day tomorrow.got to go school for dummy making session and have to leave for wedding.oh yeahs earlier on at the engagement ceremony,saw my childhood friends.the few malay friends i have.its been so long since i saw them.cause they have moved somewhere else.im considered the oldest amongst them.they were like so young since i last saw them.oh wells.life does carry on yeahs.

its 4.45 am.i am sure to be late.goodnights people.





-i sat by the window,

talking about her with fate.


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Saturday, May 16, 2009 :

caligynephobia


oh fridays,wish you never came.i super hate fridays with stupid lectures that bores me to my bones man.gosh.it seems that i have nap time from 10am to 12pm.then lunch from 12pm to 1pm and nap again from 1pm to 3pm.and thats only for today.for mannan is going to start paying attention and making less noise in class.ok thats abit too much.


so today astro meeting is settling logis and briefing the crews on the camp.its gonna happen next weekend peeps.quite troublesome today as some did not turn up and some were late :/ so bla bla bla,meeting's over and dinnered with the usuals over at al-azhar.
i think i had been psychoed to go for cambodia trip in september.seems like the whole usuals are going for it.they call it 'bonding'.am afraid that it clashes with npsu camps and also i dont want to take not only 1 but 3 injections for the trip.guys your words very convincing with the no pain injections.ok im afraid of needles can and many more. :/

but anyways i will still take the form and go for 3 freaking injections IF my parents allow me to go.haha!so most prolly i will be taking planes for the first time.so wake me up when september comes :)


-i walk a lonely mile,
just to see you smile.


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Thursday, May 14, 2009 :

fisherman's friend.



good day readers.my knee is currently healing faster then i thought and i would be back to gyming in no time.yey!thanks to all that was concerned.haha!it was a great wednesday today,with me being able to understand engineering design and mastering pro nc models.feels good uh.hohoho!helped datok kai with ece graduation ceremony.the hardest part of this job is finishing all the food.hahaha!had lots of fun with sparring with wc and to balloon fights after the party.super hilarious,hop over to josiah's blog(free ad!) for the pics and videos.if only what i told jia yong came true,well i will be the happiest man in the world.very happy.inside joke ah.ok right now lady gaga is blasting my speakers like theres no tomorrow.gosh.oh wells.cheers ppeeooppllee.

p/s:take care of your shoulder yeahs.see you soon :D
a note to me:use less fucking vulgar.thanks.

-i lay in scenes and memories,
reminiscing the memories.


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Tuesday, May 12, 2009 :

pain.


hello its tuesday,and i didnt go to school today.couldnt bring this heavyweight out of the bed with his knee still in pain.the night before was hell with sudden come back from sleep with excruciating(exaggeration) pain.missed the half an hour lesson for the whole day and slacked at home.found out that as i walk more the knee would be better.so accompanied grandma to market and to school for dinner with the guys.driving is always fun with them.lewis brought us around from school to kismis field back to alumni for dinner.beef fried rice was the sex man.extra spicy,extremely shiok.always wait for 970 bus so long.gosh.wad a dumb bus.looking to better days with you.have a great week people. :D
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the other day vitamins were on the topic ways your friend shouldnt die.so here is a few ways i dont want my friend to die.
1)got headshot by dolphine sperm.
2)hit by whales erection while swimming.
3)p-word stuck in the bottle,swell and die.
4)eat rojak and die.
5)hit by cactus while riding bicycle.
6)choke on a cockroach while sleeping with mouth wide opened.
7)hit by a golf ball while walking.
8)tripped over a hello kitty doll.
9)die to a beautiful heart.
10)knocked down by a kick scooter.
11)peck by a crow while walking in the park.
12)drown in a small drain
13)choke on a bird shit while yawning facing upwards.
14)fell into a manhole while walking on the pavement.
15)stuck in a lift with a hungry dog :(
so i hope that no one dies this way or i will have difficulty explaining to my friends.haha!
-you are such a beauty,
that i feel like a beast.


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Monday, May 11, 2009 :

ouch!

a minor twist on the knee.
ouch!
a little dissapointed but your smile.
ouch!


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Friday, May 8, 2009 :

whats left.

it has been great having you around,
being by your side,
and trying to love you.
it all seems so lucid now,
and im trying to accept the fact,
that i never won.
i promised myself,
never to cry again,
but it seems impossible to hold.
i very much hate this feeling,
of the whole world crashing down on me.
i tried everything i could,
but some things are just not right.
maybe we were never meant for each other,
or perhap it was never my luck.
so i bid farewell to all the hopes,
i have built throughout this lovely journey,
that i will never forget.
perhaps this is the way it was meant to be.
so whats left,
memories.
goodbye.

-tears are the words heart cant say.


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Thursday, May 7, 2009 :

i know i am.

just aint a great day,
im totally dissapointed.
i know fat people,
would never run away from shame.


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im not moving.

hello world.its been a great day today.i think wednesdays dont suck that bad.hope thursdays and fridays would be nice to me.i think i would learn better if i get my head in the lesson.a little quarrel with the lecturer.hes being an ass.how do u learn if he just reads of the slides.it would be the same as i download it to my laptop and read it by myself.ask him explain,not happy.oh wells.went to celebrate xing jun birthday in the evening.hope he liked the surprise we gave him,sadly he didnt cry.i think i would cry if that happens to me.so sentimental,so me.haha.so tml another long day.gonna hit the sack now.cheers peeps.
when the light disappears
and when this world's insincere
you'll be safe here
when nobody hears you scream
i'll scream with you
you'll be safe here




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Sunday, May 3, 2009 :

smiles.


stayed home all day.
so had the time to do lots of thinking.
and im down to choices.
i hope im wise enough to pick the right choice.
do i really have that unforgetable face.haha.
hope this week would be a great one.
y'know sometimes a rose is destined to love thorns.



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would you rather.

didnt get into team,
its alright.
hip and arm,
kinda whacked.
movie,dinner,sheesha,
it went great.
see that moon there,
i would pull it down,
if i could.
had a great day.
looking forward to better times ahead,
with you.


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Saturday, May 2, 2009 :

perhaps someday.


someday i would grow up,
prepared.


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Friday, May 1, 2009 :

just before i leave.

just a note to mannan.
fat and ugly people,
dont get a chance to love.
so fuck you and your hopes.


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