Sunday, August 30, 2009 :

dengdengdengdeng.

i know its been quite some time since i last blog about my happenings.i know im lazy k.life have been pretty much empty ever since school's out.miss those mugging sessions which starts as early as 10 and ending late.so exams died and hellos to holidays babes.to celebrate the death of exams,went to meet jy and co. for movie,year one.i swear its so good it deserved to be overated,yes thats my opinion.haha! its freaking lame and hilarious that i hear my toes laughing along too.well yes,its a good movie and you guys should really go catch it.

today marks the near to a week of fasting and im really happy im down with 3 weeks before i can partaayyyyy.excited much?went to meet kai and co. for dinner over at furk and spoon.salmah is always threathening me cause i owe her one red umbrella.and she threathen to tell her mum.ohhemmgee.i will get one for you soon okays.one bright red umbrella.haha!so had some teppanyaki which is like damn good(overated once again).then we bused over to geylang serai to get into the mood of raya,which of cause is an epic failure.really really pack with so many early shoppers.omg la.and the pak cik screaming through their loud inhalers mari mari which sounded like matrep matrep promoting their carpet.LOLS! but our trip wasnt dissapointed with the furking good food there.really really good(no exaggeration intended).i bought like a whole truck of food home.best part was the deng deng.its like once a year kind of thing you see.so it should be fine!HAHA!after all the food galore,we went our seperate ways.what colour should i wear this year.hmmm.whart a day man.

just so you know im trying my best.

thanks dad,

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Tuesday, August 25, 2009 :

no surprise.

amidst through my revision,i decided to look through my photos on facebook.and i made a bad choice.as i was clicking away,memories of everyone came through.i really miss hanging out on weekends with the usuals,i miss the johor trips we used to take,the joy and fun we had together that puts a bright smile across our faces.when will we ever go back and eat the coconut again.the camwhores we used to be.i miss the smile on your face.the times we had before.the nights of endless rantings and random talks.i ran through the photos and i chanced upon the photo we took back then.it would be the best photo i ever had.but photographs are just memories of the past.and it doesnt matter anymore now,does it.i realised how slim i was back then.looking back so much i have to regret,that i want another shot at life.yknow at times we cant help but look back into our past and perhaps try to alter it knowing nothing would ever change.if theres something i would so damn bad would be to go back into the past.go back and change everything that was wrong.perhaps my life now would be better.very cliche,yes i agree.perhaps what im feeling now is just the after effects of studying and not having a life i use to have.i miss the old me.i miss the mannan we used to know. :/
sadly i have no photos with dad.thats one thing i regret.

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Friday, August 21, 2009 :

its time.

how have you people been doing.yes i know i havent been updating as im busy studying and catching up with exams topics.nothing much had been happening in my life actually.
went to catch the proposal with the usuals.the proposal is a romantic comedy movie.i would rate it 4/5 and its definitely worth watching.for the past few days ive been mugging and killing my brain cells to apply formulas and clicking on the holy calculator.when will exams ever end,seriously.tsk.

fasting month is fast arriving and when i know it,its tomorrow.so no clubbing,no booze,no vulgarities,nothing illegal.just pure saint mode and angel-ly mannan.anws i had been a good boy,so it doesnt really matter.HAHA!i just wish this month would be over soon and when raya comes enjoy for a few days before going for TBC.talking about raya,this year raya would be so much different.it would be without someone whom i love the most.i remember the past years where my family would visit dad's relatives together as one.this year i guess it would be a different feel,a different story.

i guess life has pretty much been unfair to me.being the only guy in the family,i cant really relate my happenings and lifes events to the feminine side.i guess it doesnt change my life pretty much.all that i know now is i dont have anyone talk to besides my friends.i dont really talk to my family cause they want to live their way and couldnt be bothered to respect my decision.so im fine with it.thats one less worries.i still cannot get over the fact that im not there when dad left.im pretty much angry with my family.for they are the ones who forbids him.always looking back at his mistakes and the way he was before,ignoring the fact that people do change.

and its time that i change for the better.its time i do really do something about my weight and not empty promises or goals that i make.as i am determined to really make it work this time.so it would be pure determination and self-disciplined that i have yet to instill in myself.i got to pull this off to really change everything.its time.

so i hope you guys would study hard,play hard and f hard this coming week.and good luck to all of you out there who had yet to sit for papers.have a great week ahead.



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Thursday, August 20, 2009 :

lesson of the day.

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Sunday, August 16, 2009 :

thats my limit.

this is going to be an angry post.
why do people think so shallowly.why are they so narrow minded?never exchange hand shake means you disrespect them,means you make them embarassed?why are we tied down to tradition.its so dissing and irritates me to the max.why are these things never ending and why does it always seem to be my fault.everything i do doesnt sound good to you,everything she does is beautiful?fine then.have it your on way.im not stopping anyone in the family from doing anything.and if happens that one day you need my help go look for the traditional people.they just might be the right person to help you mofos.i really really need some help in finding out why if i sleep over at my friends place,it is seen as they are teaching me to do the wrong things.always blaming my friends.why,you infer like this cause of my late father.so what if im like him.you want to label me as a bad person?why do you think so narrowly.issit because of the education you people get back then that is insufficient for you to keep up in the modern world?you want make me a place to vent out your frustration you had for him on me cause you couldnt get to do it when he is still alive.ive reached my limit.ive never blown my temper like this before.you make me become an angry kid.a very angry kid.my sister is such a stuck up kid.always putting a show in front of them.oh your such a good girl _l_.kaninafuckyoucheebyeeassholemotherfuckingcowshitandallthevulgaritiesiknowyoubootlickingdog.i so fucking hate it you.you assholeccb.all i can think of you is just vulgarities for your name.you make me so pissed.you said your not my brother?im fine by that statement that you made.makes my life easier though.all you can do is nag,nag,blame my friends,talk big time,think sister is so good and whatever you do is making me very tired.i thought i could control my anger,i guess i need anger management classes. :/

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Monday, August 10, 2009 :

Its All About Love.

To All My Friends Out there.

To all my friends who are Single,
Love is like A butterfly
The More you chase it, the more it eludes you.
But if you just let it fly, it will come to you when you least expect it.
Love can make you happy but often it hurts,
But Love is only special when you give it to someone who is really worth it.
So take your time and choose the best.

To All my friends who are not so single,
love isn’t about becoming somebody else’s perfect person.
Its about finding someone who helps you become the best person you can be.

To all my friends who are playboy/Girl type,
Never say “I love you” if you don’t care.
Never talk about feelings if they aren’t there.
Never touch a life if you mean to break a heart.
Never look in the eye when all you do is lie.
The cruelest thing a guy can do to a girl: Is to let her fall in love
when he doesn’t intend to catch her fall and it works both ways.

To my friends who are engaged,
the true measure of compatibility is not the years spent together
but how good you are for each other.

To my friends who are married,
love is not about “its your fault”, but “I’m sorry”
Not “where are you”, but “I’m right here”
Not “how could you”, but “I understand”
Not “I wish you were”, but “im thankful you are”

To all my friends who are heartbroken,
Heartbreaks last as long as you want and cut as deep as you allow them to go.
The challenge is not how to survive heartbreaks But to learn from them.

To all my friends who are naïve,
How to be in love: be consistent but not too persistent,
share and never be unfair,
understand and try not to demand,
and get hurt but never keep the pain.

To all my friends who are possessive,
it breaks your heart to see the one you love happy with someone else.
But its more painful to know that the one you love is unhappy with you.

To My friends who are afraid to confess,
love hurts when you break up with someone.
It hurts even more when someone breaks up with you.
But love hurts the most: when the person you love has no idea how you feel about him/her.

To all my friends who are still holding on,
a sad thing about life is when you meet someone and fall in love,
only to find out in the end it was never meant to be,
and that you have wasted years on someone who wasn’t worth it.
If that person isn’t worth it now,
its not going to be worth it in a year or 10 years from now.

To all my friends,
my wish for you is a Girl/ guy whose love is: honest, strong, mature, never-changing, protective , encouraging, rewarding and unselfish.

p/s:courtesy of Russell Glenn Cheang.


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a reason to smile.

before i hit the books perhaps i will round up my weekends happening.im currently under 2 blanket in my sweater with a shirt on trying to sweat 39.1 out.yes its fever developed from insufficient sleep?

went for astro on friday to know that i have been given a spot in the comm starting next sem.good or bad,we will see.so i will be planning their fridays activity i guess.and it wouldnt be that simple.so after astro went to meet up with the vits and slacked over at KAP.we should have a picnic soon.haha!

went to centerpoint to look for a pair of birks.the model that i wanted doesnt come in my size,so i bought the kairo one.very nice,i like!then went to meet kai,suren,jo,qai,lei yi and williamson for GI JOE over at cine.i swear it was so good,its worth watching twice or even thrice.perhaps im a lil exaggerating here.haha!they went off and i meet jy and co.lepak for a while before going off.that sums up my saturday man.

i did nothing much on sun and spent most of the time at home.dotaing and not touching books.kinda regret cause ED CAD final test is on wednesday and i dont even know a single shit.verygoodmannan.

today woke up with my whole body feeling hot.i think its because of the lack of sleep i had for the past 3 days.spent my morning dotaing from 12am and hitting the sack at 6am.seriously no life,i agree.thats the only way i could do to stop myself from thinking?i hope this would be the last time im staying up so late.went over to qway to meet keane,syndris and jy.walk around qway and i bought nothing.yes!went home cause wasnt feeling well.

and that sums up my weekend.as i write this post,sweat is trickling down my face.verygood!have a great week ahead people.time to hit the books.

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Friday, August 7, 2009 :

weary or teary.

thank goodness,im done with most of the parts to my project.im still like 3/4 there and deadline is tmrw.howhowhow?i guess this is the kind of thrill we would achieve doing last minute work eh.not bad.im going to continue with the rest tmrw.gosh so many things to do still.

anws today chionged proe with the rest of the class.i swear it was an epidemic man,everyone's rushing.well,almost everyone.finally im done with assembling which took infinitely forever.went home and went to jog around my neighbourhood.perhaps a lil further this time.went all the way to crescent girls and back.i guess the mindset sank into my head and im determined.the only thing about night jogging is the dogs -.- .im so afraid of them i would stand aside to let them pass by first.gosh what a p.lols!but other then that its quite okays with the serenity i get from the surrounding and the great night air i get to breathe.such a beautiful world.

okay thats enough for today.im retreating to my hood and get some shut eye before morning alarms at 7.45 am.verrryynicceeee.goodnight people.

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Thursday, August 6, 2009 :

time for a change.

and yes blogger is up and running,i take back my words in the last post.love you blogger.anws school is quite a rush these few days with 2 projects deadline this friday,oh yes man.im so screwed with proe halfway there,ok perhaps abit more than half and edcad is such a burden on my shoulders.gosh,when will this ever end.

after school rush over to west coast plaza to do abit(alot actually) of shopping.chun yang had a discount voucher worth 40% to be used in nike factory store.i swear to god,everything is worth it.i got myself a pair of running shoes,tights,tees and a sweater.talk about change,its happening.and yes im going to run that mile everynight.discipline and determination would get me somewhere?lets pray that mannan coleman would make it.

projects due this friday,lots of revision to do,happening weekends? uh,maybe not.
just something random;how do we forget someone whom we care dearly?

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Monday, August 3, 2009 :

likea finally.

hey readers,i know its been a nong nong time since i last did a proper post.thinking back there were quite a few events that happened.hope that i can recall all of them.i swear this is going to be a whole chunk of words,pictureless.naize.lets see, i went for NE3 on one of the saturdays.its been like years since i last for a proper ndp show.this year show wasnt that bad.its more of a concert then a show.i love the red lions(parachuters) parachuting down from like so many many feets up in the sky.likea cool only.see them jump off and skydive,makes my hair stand.i find their military displays very very nice with its freaking real sound effects and the mini show they put up.two thumbs up man.

i think i have been clubbing for 2 weeks straight i think.couldnt remember which 2 dates but yes.it kinda takes the stress of you and go out there have fun with your friends.although i was tempted to go last weekend, i made a deal with zx that neither of us would go clubbing till exams are happily over.damn tempting but got to resist.right zx?

vitamins outing last friday i think.we went for dinner and caught a bit on each others life.although everybody wasnt there but still the love was still going.haha!went to holland v for chillax session cut short by someone so grumpy who asked us to keep quiet?f that guy.i just realised after so many many many years that i never zip my pants when i was taking photo in kindergarten.FML.went over to daniel laksana's place and waited 8438713 years for him to appear.night sky,dim streetlights and empty road what more can you ask for? had osim international triathlon the next day,reporting time 430am.so you guys might roughly know how tired we were when volunteering at the race.and yes i was sleeping on the bench after watching the fisherman cast his line.what a beautiful day.

went to catch B.P on sunday with zx.we were like the latest to catch it.the show was so-so as they had to put all those facts and storyline right i guess.more on relationship issues? and definitely i would be scared if there was ever a lavender in np.damned.i think harry potter needs a hair cut and nice vintage specs.perhaps bangs dude?best part zx cried over dumbledore death.lets go awww.HAHA!

i wanna follow daniel to bali and jakarta this holidays.oh man,it seems likea fun only.perhaps i could get my dreadlocks done over there.could go down town drooling over indo chiqs?and daniel says he can drive in indo but i dont trust his skills.damn.hopefully i could use edusave for a well-deserved vacation after school terms end.please minister?

school is now is quite hectic.im almost done with my proe project which is due friday.hopefully it would be done by tmr.am gonna start revising,studying,mugging;whatever you guys like to call it for the exams which are like less then a month time.time study hard and play hard.theres so many things on my wishlist,i need manehh.lets hope school doesnt suck like it always do.

why cant i upload photos.whateverbloggerusuck.

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