Sunday, September 27, 2009 :

party like a rockstar.

its been awhile since my last happy posttt.life had taken a downturn but im trying to get back up on my own two feet.the weekend had been great.really awesome.

went visiting to my fathers sibling places.at every house i drop by the host ask me eat.so everywhere i go,i eat.different houses different food.wahh cannot tahan.eat till my tummy so round,it looked like the moon.LOL!so caught up abit with my cousins and yes,i have a 30 something cousin.cool eh.moolah was great.hahaha!

met laksana over at orchard.we dropped by cotton on body to check out some chicks,guess who we caught.a chipmunk.corrine and fion happened to be there.so trained down to clarke quay to meet sheryl and poof we are over at rebel taking tequilla shots.yess clubbbinnggggg.hop from rebel to zirca to and fro.house music was power,rnb was the secksss.the place was crowded likea geylang times 2.it was happening,ecstatic and power la siahl.LOL!took the first bus home after chilling over at macs,washing eyes.LOL!and sheryl i know what you did in the club.HAHAHA!

spent half of my sunday snoring away.woke up,changed and went queensway.used up half of my raya moolah on something.hope to receive it soon!(Y).went home to watch the f1(please take note,im not a big fan).the cars going round in circles makes me damn sleepy.spinning my head right round right round.

i have yet to pack for sl red camp tomorrow.havent sign indemnity form also.i will be off for sl red camp from 28 to 30.and heading to mambo on wednesday night!anyone interested just come ok.okays got to pack my stuff.see you people in 3 days time.have a great week ahead.

its no surprise i wont be there tomorrow :D

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Friday, September 25, 2009 :

its all yellow.

i know its been a while since a proper update.like i always say nothing much really happens in my life.well my body clock is screwed for sure.weird sleeping time?

6am to 12pm(sleep)
6pm to 12am(sleep)

so the rest of the time im awake either gaming or online window shopping.insomnia is really a killer when you dont get to sleep and you really want to go to bed but you cant.well raya is pretty much over? at least for me.but still i think im going for some last visiting to my father side of family tomorrow before im away for camps.

send off part of the vits away to cambodia.they will only come back 2 weeks later?so vits is down in numbers.wont be seeing us going out as some are working.but you'll see me and laksa hitting the dancefloor.lol!

i caught i love you beth cooper with a friend.it was a good show,really and if only love stories do turn out great in the end.oh well,fuck them.what happens in the movie dont fucking happen in reality.had a great day though!

i still cannot get the point old people wanna tell me.so yes,my proposal got rejected again.its getting tiring to spend time doing it up and just get rejected just because of generation gap.

and can we move on and never talk about people who no longer exist.whats the point of asking for forgiveness on hari raya and the next moment we are swearing and cursing at the slightest thing involving people who dont fucking exist anymore.sorry if im too sensitve,hes my dad afterall.

i see my life changing idk for the worse? im tired of all these shit.if only i never had fallen so deep,i guess it would be much better for us or rather me to move on.the slightest thoughts of it giving reality a chance to kick my ass.a wake up call.it sucks,yes definitely.people around say we just need to take our mind off and do something else.but what if we are doing something else but always thinking of it.i learn my lesson,never to give my all.sighs.sorry i am having a bad time of my life.have a great weekend peeps.

oh im not looking towards the next sem.4 fucking difficult modules. :/

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Monday, September 21, 2009 :

a special raya.

this year raya started very early in the morning.as early as 2am.yep i was up cleaning my room which had been procrastinated for a very long long time.and by sunrise i was almost done.went to supermarket to buy 20 bottles of soft drinks,yep thats alot i know.so ask for forgiveness from our old ones.cabbed to my late father's sister house at around noon.we do this every single year.but this year is different,its without dad.so had a little chit chat session and abit of lunch you could say.memories of the past raya suddenly hit me.the seat was no longer occupied,dad is no longer here.the silence on the dining table seems very inevitable.everyones chewing their beef,slurping the curry.everyone stared hard at their servings,not wanting to relive the memories.its disheartening to see my aunty cried when she look at us.she feels the pain looking at us growing up without him.on a beautiful saturday raya morning i reflect on life and how unpredicatble.like i said,when we are trying to change for the better,time does not allow.

so ask forgiveness as this is a must for youngsters cause we are young in the mind and hot in the heart.cabbed back home and waited for my mum's brothers and sisters to arrive.so i shall not bore you guys with words,lets have a picture spam.have a great day.

Part of my collections.



The 20 bottles,me and sis bought.



Before being whipped.



Ketupat.



The fired chicken before.



And the aftermath. (Y)



I never tried it but looks good eh.



The a-must-to-have in every raya.



Kuih lapis.



This is like the sex man.Honey Cornflakes (Y)



The raya delicacies.



Proud of myself yes.



The 2 most irritating sister one could ever have.LOL!



The first family that came.no worries hes not feeling well.LOL!



I look tall among my cousins yes?and dark too -.-



This is dania,she is very cute!



My cutest niece,Dania!



My niece misha.adorables isnt she.



This is my cousin atikah.



And for the record. :D




and tomorrow is part 2.Have fun guys :D

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Sunday, September 20, 2009 :

seperti tahun yang lepas.

seperti yang saya sudah janji,saya akan update dalam bahasa melayu.hari in adalah hari terakhir semua umat islam di singapura berpuasa.saya amat gembira kerana saya dapat clubbing dan lepak-lepak dengan kawan-kawan.sebelum saya megumumkan apa-apa,saya mahu ucapkan ini kepada semua teman-teman saya.

Kepada teman-teman yang ku sayangi dan kasihi.sempena hari raya ini,ingin ku susun sepuluh jari untuk minta maaf dan ampun sekiranya ade terkasar bahasa,tersalah silap,termaki hamun,tersakiti hati sesiapapun dan semua yang jatuh dalam kategori itu.saya harap makan minum yang telah diberikan di halalkan dan kesalahan di ampunkan.sekali selamat hari raya maaf zahir dan batin.ini tidak ditujukan kepada teman-teman yang menyambut hari raya tetapi kepada semua teman saya.

bilik tidur saya belum lagi habis dibersihkan.saya harus berhenti membersihkan bilik kerana adik-adik saya belum lagi kemas barang-barang mereka.masih ada banyak lagi yang harus dikemas dan dibersihkan.aduh hai.esok saya akan pergi melawat sedara sebelah ayah dan duduk di rumah tunggu sedara ibu.saya agak excited untuk berjumpa dengan saudara-mara yang sudah lama tidak jumpa.menulis dalam bahasa melayu agak susah dan mengambil saya masa yang lama.haha!

dengan itu selamat hari raya kepada semua! :DD

Pusing Pusing Terlanggar Hantu,
Golek Golek terhantuk Tiang,
Jauh Di Mata Hatiku Rindu,
Bila Dekat Semakin Sayang.

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Saturday, September 19, 2009 :

i like that boom boom pow.

what if i tell you im a time traveller.i travelled back to the past to remember what i did for the past week.sounds freaky,nope.its fucking cool shit.i know im like updating this space for like once a week.yes blablabla,boring stuffs.its the same old weekly routine that i go through every week.meetings,cca,meetings,dota.what do you want me to tell you about?

had a mini vits outing on a crazy thursday afternoon.with the likes of logeh,daniel club laksana,zatgjy,lynette bubbles all either not in sg or mia.so we kinda caught the time traveller's wife.i would say its a show worth watching and shedding a tear.how crazy it would be if you could time travel?but how sad to know the day you take your leave,leaving the people you love.Imagine the anxiety of knowing you are nearer to your death.thats one thing about time travelling, but i wish i could win toto like that.lol!

i stayed up through the night like i always did,waiting anxiously for my results to be out.i pinned my hopes high as i scored well in CTs.hoping for a gpa of at least 2.75 and above.how dissapointing.my gpa could even drop from the last sem.well done.all my effort of last minute super hardwork did not pay off i guess.me and the guys, we need a new technique and stunt to pull through next year's exams.any ideas? so accepted the results,suck it like a man and moved on.dont even have to get a brochure for uni.nie hopefully.

so got a very long refreshing sleep before i head to plaza sing in the evening to get a short novel.its by this author low kay hwa.not sure if you guys ever heard of this guy.but he writes wonderful stories man.stories that move you to tears(yes i subdued to that), stories that change your perspective on life.its a definitely a read man.i just completed the latest book,lilith , like before i started blogging.its a story about this girl who is HIV-positive and how the world looks down on her.the rest is up to you to read.(Y)

so tmrw would be the last day of the fasting month.i did a great job this year by skipping only 2 days.last year skipped fasting like free only.i guess its what i had aim and my goals that i set that motivated me.so raya is around the corner and i have yet to look for my baju kurung,clean my house and shave my goateee.shall do it all tomorrow.h-o-p-e-f-u-l-l-y!my house would be in big hoo haa soon as my grandma and mum take on the chicken and beef to delicious dishes.boiling those ketupat which reminds that i have yet to put up that lights decoration.sheez.quite excited for raya though,all my little cute nieces and nephews :DD

so do lookout for tmrw's night post.i think i will be posting it in pure malay language.i try my best though.my mother tongue is very bad now cause i dont really speak malay outside of home.so here is a cheers to a great weekend.have fun but stay out of shit!HAHA!

my next week's plan:

monday-raya la sia.
tuesday-meeting with tt(zzz).
wednesday-out to somewhere.
thursday-bdd meeting.
friday-astro activity.
saturday-stay home,people might come.
sunday-same as above.lol!

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Wednesday, September 16, 2009 :

time and time again.

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Monday, September 14, 2009 :

it came out like a river once i let it out.

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Wednesday, September 9, 2009 :

even if the sky is falling down.

i hope everyone is doing well so far.my life been pretty screwed up,apart from insomnia.problems at home seems tiresome.i still dont understand what they are thinking or the problem just lies with me.

on a great sunday afternoon went to meet the npsu and ece peeps for a singapore run event.it was somehow fun over there walking the f1 track.went for dinner over at carls jr in marina.it was somehow valli's farewell dinner.had a great time over there laughing.valli you take care over at australia man.hope those aussies chicks wont run away from you(refering to your hair).have fun and come back safely.dont forget souveniers too.HAHA!

i couldnt really remember what i did on a monday.but i had to go to school to give all the volunteers a briefing about the event.i guess it was kind of informal one.who likes a tense meeting anyways.so after that went to npsu to slack and kill time by sleeping on the couch.it feels so comfortable but rather warm.the reason i was sleeping there was because i dont wanna go home and do spring cleaning for raya.they were cleaning before i left,so i afraid they havent finish when i come home.i know im lazy.

today went out to buy a samsung qwerty phone,b7320.totally love its function and the qwerty keypad man.went over to vivo walk around,window shopping.bought 2 small packs of nasi lemak,no appetite to eat.feels dam lousy today,idk why.jogging have been great.every night 2.4km.if im doing this,im doing it for myself.

yknow i was reading through escapers21.livejournal.com. i read through oct posts by me.written during fasting month.i see how much i have changed over a year.my use of english perhaps was better?i had so much free time compared to now.i saw myself reading books afer books during my free time.i saw fear of my uncle's cat in the diary.i saw how love changed into dissapearance.theres a post,i promise not to cry.this promise broken so many times.why such a weakling?and i saw my raya post,a joyful day with dad.

have a great week ahead people.

loves mannan :)

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Saturday, September 5, 2009 :

true isn't it.

holidays have been quite a bore,with never escaping school grounds and staying put at home.been dotaing in the night and trying to get some beautiful sleep in the day before commitments drag my body out of bed to school.

i have been down to school almost everyday of the week for meetings and countless meetings.so my first meeting was with astro advisor.he couldnt allow most of the fun game i had planned in camp.so butter hill is out.damn that game is considered one of the best.so astro peeps,there wouldnt be any butterhill in ANE.so meeting with him was over,i still cannot suck it that those reasons were behind my games to be cancelled.good job.ask you guys,does a girl wearing a wet t-shirt turn you on?i know its unexpected but thats what he thought would happen.so i got the choice to carry out my wet games in the swimming pool with girls wearing swimsuit to protect their modesty.i got fucked by saying " so i let them wear swimsuit to play wet games outside the pool la since wet t-shirt not allowed?oh well.thats the reason why i hate the older generation,their mindset so much different from us.we gotta move on yes?

so next was blood donation drive publicity.nothing much about it except i have to do changes to the date and do a briefing for all volunteers on monday.well its quite difficult with the "bank" being abit stingy.so thats one problem we have.other than that everything is going as per normal.earlier on i went to do my filling in the dental truck in np.cost quite a bomb.but the dentist was sweet and pretty la siaaa.luckily no pain,if not i will be crying.LOL!go check the dentist out.sweet and pretty,no joke.HAHA!

friday:red camp 06 games trial and interview went pretty well i can say.coincidentally me and laksana same group for the interview.thats a relief.HAHA!there were quite a number of people who signed up and i can say they are really somehow the higher class of people.ok maybe not.so i went home to catch abit of slumber before going out to meet kai and co. for popeyes.the chicken is really like those in kfc.the sizes i think kfc bigger?the fries rock-ed!and the whip potato was the sex.really good although i tasted abit.HAHA!got a taste of yami yogurt,not bad really.

slept through my afternoon only to wake up at 5pm?slacked awhile before i went to queensway to cut hair.and now my hair looks super ugly.well done mannan.you screwed you hair.did i mention my uncle came back from overseas.so he kinda talked to me and right now,i have to support myself.buy my own shit and use my own money.OK REALLY GG.why do i have to grow old super effing fast?im not prepared for adulthood man.and now i have to pay for my own zakat not only the fitrah but the harta as well.oh well its part and parcel of life that we have to give instead of always taking.if only dad was around.


You Are My Sunshine
My only sunshine.
You make me happy
When skies are grey.
You'll never know, dear,
How much I love you.
Please don't take my sunshine away

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Tuesday, September 1, 2009 :

time,time and time again.

Hello september,goodbye august.well august had been a month of hardwork,joy,happiness,sadness and everything.so as i start this month of september right,i went back to relief memories of yesterday.yes back to sec school.with great ol' buddies jac,jing si and vans.

it started quite hilarious with jac not allowed to enter school as our great buddy bernard(DM) didnt allow long hair students into school.so we suggested him to tie up his hair.after much persuasion he did.so we got into school and bernard finally told jac to take it out as it looked....HAHA!went for the teachers day concert which honestly is kinda crappy.only like 2 performance did left an impression,young talents really.caught up with our one and only favourite teacher Mr D.Chong.talked about school,life and when he is going to get married.haha!well he changed his yellow banana mazda car into altis or something along that line.so caught up with a few teachers and left henderson to head home and do the best thing in the world.sleep :D

so woke up later in the evening at 5pm.was thinking whether to go help loga anot.in the end i went as i had promised to.so i had to bring sarong and songkok for his music video project.and what i didnt expect was i had to be half-naked.nice one.the music video is shot in Loft with i would say a nice set.so i had to wear a sarong with songkok and nearly half naked as this guy who is the director gave me a t-shirt to wear.so we have to act act act.had quite abit of fun there,with loga wearing a yellow sunflower dress and wei jian looking like some aunty with leg hair zao keng-ing(sorry if wrong).hilariously ridiculous.had dinner with loga's friends and off i make my way home.great company,great day(Y).

so that somehow sums up my start to the beautiful month of september.so this week im somehow rather packed with meetings and all.so the only free day i have is tuesday and i wanna catch final destination 4.anyone?gonna post up my schedule here,so i will not forget.go out there have fun,sing in the sun,cry in the rain,jump for the sky.most importantly dont get yourself into shit.have a great week people. :D

Monday-over and done with.
Tuesday-Freeeee :DD
Wednesday-BDD and Astro Meeting
Thursday-Heading over to Jooks.
Friday-Red Camp Interview/Go out with the usuals to Geylang?sinful.HAHA!
Saturday-Free
Sunday-Free

i promise never to let you appear in my life again.


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