Tuesday, October 27, 2009 :
when i see you smile.
Today my ISP teacher returned the results to the quiz we took about the way we study. Im rather agreeable to the results that i gotten. It explains so much similar things that i have in my attribution. Let me share some strong factor that i have.Activists (DO)
-Immerse themselves fully in new experiences
-Enjoy here and now
-Open minded, enthusiastic, flexible
-Act first, consider consequences later
-Seek to centre activity around themselves
Reflector (REVIEW)
-Stand back and observe
-Cautious, take a back seat
-Collect and analyze data about experience and events, slow to reach conclusions
-Use information from past, present and immediate observations to maintain a big picture perspective
now how many of them are true.
Getting by each day seems tougher and tougher. Yknow how it feels to go to school looking forward to bump into someone. The cheap thrill you get when you see them? No longer does it exist within me. Realised how loser one could be,when he couldnt be her saviour. Never could he tell her how the world revolves with history nor would he be able to save a heart from being shattered. We all could just watch as days passes by and do nothing about it till they come back crying. Lets all just hope for the best and be ready to lend a shoulder to cry on.
heartfelt at 10:13 PM
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have we ever thought?
have we ever felt that we are always to be blamed for whenever something crops up. can we differentiate friends from true friends. how many times do we get people to stand up for us, talk to us about our mistakes, listen to our worries and sadness and be there for us like a real true friend would. many out there are just our hi bye friends, how many are your real friends. i took sometime to reflect after i saw my friends fb updates. it somehow hits me like a train,thoughts running through in a rush hour.it made sense. sets me thinking through a train of thought that seems endless.so how many actually are there. let me share with you people.A reporter ask val, " why are you so annoying and irritating at times?"
Val replied, : because i am myself.
Reporter ask again, : Not only that, i heard you talk without considering others feelings.
Val replied, : because i am myself.
Reporter ask again, : then others also said that you like to blurt out secrets people have told you.
Val replied, : Its because of question 1 and question 2, people conclude about Question 3.
Now in lsct(my school) Year 3 got a common acknowledgement..., as long as their secret is exposed - everything val say one. As long as they need someone to find blame for, VAL SAY ONE RIGHT!
Reporter was so excited that he asked another question, : but isn't act cool and talk like a gentleman is good for wooing girls?
Val replied, : I'm not a perfect person, so i'm not gonna try to be one. Live like a hypocrite and you get what you want. Live like yourself, you don't get what you want, But you get self satisfaction. I can always make friends easily ...by offering them cigs , treat them drinks, and care for them.Or i can make true friends by scolding them, helping them only when they are in need, and care for them by saying they are in fault when they truely are.
Reporter, : thank you for the interview.
its good to reflect on how live our life these days. you may never when people change. now where are you people.
heartfelt at 12:15 AM
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Monday, October 26, 2009 :
just a passing rain.
i am in thermo class not bothering about what the lecturer is saying.i know im a bad boy. :( keane crashed my lecture and hes playing lol.first time blogging through my phone.seems cool eh.okay shall i keep my blog updated as much as i can. have a great week people. :)
i shall keep my mouth shut,
who am i to you anws,
im just someone out there,
whom we just say hi and bye to,
i know i sholdnt have start,
damn right i shouldnt,
best wishes. :)
heartfelt at 1:24 PM
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Saturday, October 24, 2009 :
without you.
thanks buddy, :)
ever felt your heart shattered into a million pieces.ever tried to put the million pieces together and it cuts you deeply when you try to fix it. ever felt so childish to lose a friend after rejections ever felt as though you were never good enough for anyone or perhaps to ugly for the world to accept.ever wondered how they feel about you. have ever you thought the deepest matters of the heart.now think again.
yknow nobody escapes from social judgement.everywhere,everytime,always we would be judged by the people around us.be it good or bad we can never run away from the bitter reality. unhappiness,jealousy,humour we all take it lightly but it was never the same humour the person get. ever thought how the person would feel,have you selfish people ever spare a thought for them? then why dont we just publicise it in the news, put it on the billboard, write in to stomp, do an advertisement on television. want to feel good,yes? do it then. if it does make you feel superior , i will give you two (Y) (Y) up.
i know,i realised,i feel that i have change for i dont know(the worst)? i just need some time,some time for me to think and reflect again. thanks to those who cared. i came across this phrase some where "Move on Its just a chapter in the past but dont close the book,just turn the page". it seems true,very true.
i know its a rather angsty post. this is my space and i deserve to write what i think here. dont like the way i made you feel guilty,eff off then. lets look to better days,with cheerful entries where i would scratchmybackside.
i will be miserable at best.
heartfelt at 2:56 AM
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Friday, October 23, 2009 :
im running away,leaving this man.
from jo's birthday bash,to night scene to meetings and meetings,to outings,to happiness,to sadness,to everything that happen the last week or so. so much that i couldnt remember them in chronological order. no point looking back into the past but just look at the days ahead which i deemed would be diffuclt. so lets see if i could make the best out of the days that are coming and be someone whom i used to be and want to be.
there are ten things which i want to stop,and these ten things are somehow things which i developed over time.shall not reveal them here as it is for me to know and for none to find out. all i can say is that i screwed my life,social judgement,trust and relationships.
i shall smile for the world to see and my heart to feel. 8am lesson tomorrow,hello maths teacher i need your enrichment lessons.goodnight.
its alright,its god damn alright.
heartfelt at 12:24 AM
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Tuesday, October 13, 2009 :
that i just want you to know.
i wanna be your rockstar.
have been really good. i can say its better to smile than lie in sorrows.
so i was away from 6 to 8 october for team bonding camp. i totally enjoyed the camp although it was a small group.smaller group more bonding more fun (Y). from the
company to the night/trail walk to the bonding session to the campfire. awesome shitzzz.
its way better then the tbc i attended before and no regrets i made many new friends! i love the tbc cheers to claps that was made. hilarious much? HAHAHA!
so 3 days of camp went by in a blink of an eye. unforgettable experience i could say. all the
memoirs of FOC egypt came rushing back and it made me miss being a GL so much
so the weekends came and it was time to partayyy? hell yeah! went to phuture over at zouk with hairband boy,manda,choo choo,leslie choo,weijian kor kor,logeh,peilin and the mvp val. well i think i had a little bit too much, oh oh oh oh. there was crazy booze all over,best night scene for me till naow! housed over at leslie choo place with val and manda. head home in the morning with hangover hanging over our body. ok sounds logical. great booze, great company, great night!
went out to bugis to meet wei jian and laksana for a supposedly hair make over session which did not happen. slack over at tpy to wait for manda to end work before dinner over at pizza hut! and laksana should stop using vulgarities before hair starts growing all over.remember karma!
blood donation drive publicity drive already started. well i think its quite slack this year
compared to last year. which is really really tiring. so far it had been quite good with the helpers
being able to give out everything! well done boys! and so it continues for the next few days!
so for now have a great week before school starts. drink first,talk later! :D
im not looking back,i promise.
heartfelt at 9:34 PM
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Tuesday, October 6, 2009 :
deep and meaningless.
im here to give a short update of today's happening! went over to school at 11am with only 2 hours of sleep. meet the spartans over at atrium and we began our video shoot.from places to places we travel. laughters, kelwyn spastic language capability, from top of the hill marching back to cc to get scolded by aunty. after filming had dinner over at makan place.chit chat about many many stuff,head over to holland v to chill.ate chicken wings which tasted darn good.beered and chill over at indochine before we went our seperate ways.great day with spartans.
Betty,Sakinah,Jhovanie.
Spartons.
Lynno!
Miranda,Betty!
BETTY!
so im off for team bonding camp tomorrow.dont miss me people.have a great week ahead.
p/s : vitamins outing on friday for sushi.please do turn up.we need everyone! cheers! :D
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I, I dont know why i miss you so much
Yeah I, I dont know why I still feel your touch
You, you left me feeling high and dry
With nothing, nothing but the question why
Yeah you, I guess you had another direction
And leaving me with nothing but a dead connection
If you call me today
Ill say that Im fine
But I bet you can tell by the tone of my voice
Its just a lie
You knew what you had
You still walked away leaving me in this mess
My love for you is deep and meaningless
You, you knew what you were doing to me
And I, I guess I was too blind to see
Well you hit where it hurt and you fooled me so bad
But I'd do it again to relive what we had
There are many things left to remind me
Of a love that I just cant leave behind me
sighs.
heartfelt at 1:35 AM
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Monday, October 5, 2009 :
1,2 whoop whoop.
please?
okay let me recall what happen for the past week:
monday to wednesday: time spent over in school or rather loft for SL Camp. its actually not a new experience to me as i have gone through FOC Egypt.started out like normal camp stuff.ice breaking,games and all. its more of a bonding camp as a matter of fact. we the spartans are always laughing and enjoying ourselves in everything we do. with the likes of funny people around,yes spartans is the home to be. spartans flag was the nice-estest. i guess the camp brought our mind and hearts together as one?
pictures spam over at fb.go check it out.
on wednesday night: met val,russ,uk greg over at city hall.food court for dinner and off to butterfact. greg had some connection so we did not need to queue.phew! queue was effing long! free flow of booze,great music,great company,headbanging boy bawang,mac-ed and cabbed home with new friends : brice and faris.
i think i slept through my thursday and did nothing out of that good weather.i guess i had a little too much the day before.but not wasted though!
fridays were spent in school having a briefing for like only 10 people? its f pathetic. i mean if the volunteers do not want to help out anymore or could not make it. at least have the courtesy to inform? imagine waiting for people you are expecting to turn up and only a handful turned up. some took the initiative or have that little bit of respect to inform that they are not turning up. well im not angry,im just dissapointed.
went out jalan raya on saturday. do some final visiting before raya wraps up for the year. had some delicious lunch over at my uncle's open house. big,bigger,biggest(soon).then caught up with valli to meet the daniel and co. for supperclub. it was a huge dissapointment over there.music was 4/10, booze was 7/10, company 10/10!HAHA! made some new friends! valli got grinded by gay!LOL!it was epic,he has gayophobia now!HAHA! okays so slack over at mac and the idea of russ winding down the side windows of the cab shouting at us "no money take cab home ar" just keeps playing in my mind. LOL. slack over at starbucks before taking a train to the hood. had a great laugh over there. you (V).
slept through my sunday morning till the late afternoon.pictures were up on facebook abouta night before. chill and slack for abit before heading to town to meet russ,val and daniel. watched surrogates over at cine. not that of a bad show,3.5 outta 5. val and daniel left for home, while me and russ waited for bert to pick us up for supper. went to chong pang for the famous nasi lemak? chit chat for a bit and home. the boys are going to the government gym and to serve the country in like 3 days? well good luck to them,have fun and dont pick up that bar soap! LOL!
Its too funny to see him naked at the top.
Check out russ's hair.he looks like some cheena man. LOL!
Gilbert that future policeman.
so im thinking whether i should hit the sack after this post or should i dota till its time to go.oh yes im going for team bonding camp tomorrow and will be away till thursday.till then dont miss me,have a great time and dont get yourselves into shit. remember we dont hate the players,we hate the game. have a great week ahead! :D
heartfelt at 6:19 AM
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