Sunday, June 28, 2009 :
enough?
on TUESDAY(23June):i was in school lepaking when cheryl ee called.she asked me to ride the bungee with her friend as it was his birthday.so i went in place for her.all i can say about the ride,its not for the weak hearted.perhaps a little bit of advice:JUST SCREAM YOUR LUNGS OUT.it helps :D thanks cheryl for the EXPERIENCE OF MY LIFE.hahaha.video is up on fb,check it out. :DD
on Wednesday(24June):had a supposedly mass anubis outing which turned out to be boys out to town day(just count syndris as guy).went to town to catch transformers 2.i swear it was so freaking good,its worth to watch again and perhaps again.optimus prime is super cool and megan fox is super hot.i would rate it 4.99999999/5.good show peeps.after the show met horus who wan having outing as well for dinner.end up at clarke quay for some chillax and talk talk session.didnt go home and ended up over at cyrus dotaing our night away.i enjoyed the day.definitely :DD
from Friday Till Today(26 to 28June):had astronomy outreach programme.i shall not go into negative side of the camp.the good think about the camp is we get to sleep at loft which was damn good.good session to chill with good friends around.self-entertainment is what we did throughout the camp.the food,company and drink was good.movie marathon was what we did to burn our night and snore till the sun was up high.great time with the peeps.oh yeahs i saw saturn and jupiter.and the moon quite shine as bright as you.perhaps a pick up line for you:
Guy:The stars arent that bright today eh?
Girl:Why?
Guy:Cause you stole all of its shine.
holidays are over,school is here.time check:1150pm.school tomorrow at 9am.goodnight.
its a bit sad,
i had to back off.
heartfelt at 11:25 PM
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Sunday, June 21, 2009 :
Father's Day.
this year i never get to celebrate this day.
and as much as i wanted to,i could not.
talking about fathers triggers my memories of a young me with him somewhere in back in time.
the bitter truth that i have to accept is that hes gone.
i want to so much put a brave front and fulfill those promises not to tear anymore seems difficuly.
two weeks ago,
he left and never said his final goodbye.
i think GOD gave me a final chance to meet him,
the night before my birthday,
he dropped by and that was the last time i would ever held his hands and kiss in respect.
and that was GOD's birthday gift to me.
i still remember when i was young,
dad would bring us out even though it might not be going somewhere far or some luxurious places.
the togetherness and the love for his kids is what matters the most.
we might not have travel around the world, eaten at the most expensive places, or go to the seven wonders of the world, having to bring me up thus far,i am thankful to you dad.
you have tried your best to turn this family around, and you just started when fate meets.
you have been someone whom i look up to at times, taught me life's lessons, and gave me hell when im supposed to.
my fond childhood memories with you, i will never leave them, and will always be treasured.
i remember the time when you piggy back me from home, to the market to buy food.
i still remember when you came home late one day, with a cut on your forehead.
that moment i cleaned up for you.
you may not be the best dad in the world, you are the best dad i could ever have.
thank you for everything you had done,
i love you dad.
happy fathers day.
heartfelt at 1:25 AM
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Friday, June 19, 2009 :
why does dissapointment has to come my way in such a beautiful time,
heartfelt at 3:00 AM
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Thursday, June 18, 2009 :
im done.
hello world its the first week of holidays and im back from challengers.this camp is something new that i never experienced before when im with su.challengers had its pros and cons which i shan't elaborate.overall it was a good effort.a few lessons i took away and i shall not elaborate on this too.all i can say is that my eyes are always open,my ears always hearing and im always judging.when its over means its over,goodnight world
heartfelt at 12:20 AM
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Sunday, June 14, 2009 :
postcard.
its 4.03 am here on a beautiful sunday morning.am waiting for my phone to be charged cause i forgot to do so earlier.so here i am updating this space.it had been a week since dad left us,im thankful to GOD for giving me the strength to accept reality and for me to move on with life.i guess life had just took a toll on me,hitting me right in the face.i do wonder sometimes,what am i going to do without him.oh wells.thank you friends for your concern,im alright people.
common test were long over and done with.holidays are in but it feels empty.camp is coming up on monday which i dont know whether im anticipating or dreading.but i will go anyways,dont wanna miss out that chance of being a DH.kinda once in a lifetime thing.there are so many movies i wanna watch and so many things i wanna get.i hope camp would be fun.i think its first time im dreading camp.gosh.
went out yesterday with wc and co.went to town,sing song,talk cock,eat,play mind games and lepak.it had been a fun day and im sure they had fun too.heh.no plans tomorrow or maybe might be meeting some peeps to go down to funan for some dota shits.oh yeah,im not a hardcore dota-er.cheers peepos.
-your eyes shine quite as bright,
capturing virgin hearts.
heartfelt at 4:03 AM
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Sunday, June 7, 2009 :
if i sow an ugly seed,will it grow to be a beautiful tree?
heartfelt at 11:44 PM
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Saturday, June 6, 2009 :
goodbye,
i never imagined myself having to go through all these.i always wanted to be an adult,but this way too fast.time is going by so much faster than i thought.i just a lost a loved one and now i have to live through with responsibilities as a leader in my family.
woke up this morning with tiredness etched to my mind thinking about whys and hows.left for mortuary to identify my dad before all my relatives come to bring the body to pusara aman for normal muslim burial.a little talk with my dad's uncle,i then found out that he was from st andrews sec school.he said my dad was a smart guy and truly he is.i tried to hold back,putting a brave front.it seems impossible.i kissed dad for the last time,i cried.my dad is safely buried at pusara abadi cemetery.
theres a wisdom behind every tragedy.it brought me closer to my father side of the family.i never knew that i had a cousin who is in the 30s.i never knew my dad still has an uncle.it brought me much more closer to them.
my deepest gratitude to all my relatives who arranged everything and all the encouragement you gave me,to all my friends who cared and was there to hear me out.thanks for being there everyone.i will try to move on with life,as i close this chapter of my life.i will be strong and face the world.goodbye dad,i love you.
oh common tests are here,let it be over.im not prepared.
heartfelt at 11:45 PM
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Friday, June 5, 2009 :
05/06/09.
Have you ever imagine if you moved on with no one by yourside.no family members by you to hold you and show their last love for you when you take your last breath?
my father has always been the one that i looked up to.putting aside his bad past and the mistakes he had done,i always respected him as someone who is very caring,supportive and loving.fond memories of him i will treasure in the deepest of my heart and will never forget the moments i spend with him.i still can remember how he brought the whole family to ecp for picnic and the day when i got my first sun tan.the day when he told me its time i learn to tie my own shoelaces.the day when he told me its time i grow up and take buses on my own.he told me to take a bus to tiong bahru and buy tamiya cars on my own.he would bring me to toyrus to buy my favourite lego sets.buy me football jerseys.the day he was by myside in my deepest fear of operation.i still remember when he shouted from right outside our flat to the playground asking me to go home when its sundown.i missed the way he will cook sambal sotong on weekends as he knows its my favourite.and the love he shown me from day to night.now all that is left is memories of him within me.
on an innocent friday morning,a call from CGH saying my dad is in critical condition and asked me to come down to see him.the uneasiness inside me overwhelmed my emotions,i cried.i know something's not right,from the moment my sister woke me up there mus be something wrong with dad.it was difficult holding my tears back.entered ANE with teary eyes as the doctor confirmed it.the whole world came crashing down on me.right into my face,i was slapped with reality,dad's gone.i went to look at dad for the last time before i stood at the corner tearing as i watch brothers and sister to my dad came.they told me to be strong,but no one told me that i need to be stronger than this.as the clock tick,my eyes went dry.i forced myself to accept the fact,hes gone. life is so unpredictable.
sometime i wonder why when we are trying to make life better,this have to happen.i guess its part and parcel of life.and dad time has come.i will try my best to hold my tears tomorrow.im sorry,im not there by yourside when you breathe for the last time.im sorry for the times when i troubled you or if im very demanding.im sorry cause i wasnt there.i will swallow this bitter gum and move on with my life.thank you dad,thank you for everything you had given me till now.i knew you try your best to make up for your mistakes and try to turn the tide.i had forgiven you for your past mistakes.i guess there wont be anymore phone calls from you.goodbye dad.
p/s:i just have to pour my heart here.
to all of you,treasure your loved ones,before they are gone.
heartfelt at 10:05 PM
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charred gardens.
w-jam
hey people,hey whats up.are you feeling good this week?mine had been quite bad yet fruitful yes.lets me flashback into monday.i got cookies presents from yinhui.went for appreciation held by npsu.tuesday was revision all day.seems like i can digest some concepts for FM.wednesday was well spent over at the gym.thursday is screwed up,why?cause im sure to fail 2 tests.a round of applause please.but ont he brighter note it had been productive mugging at the library.its an unusual sight ok.me,mugging.weird.haha.tomorrow friday,worse day of the week.9am lessons,im fucked.let the weekend come soon.and holidays sooner.study hard people,cheers :D
-judged.
heartfelt at 12:38 AM
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Wednesday, June 3, 2009 :
random.
the grass is green.i swear.
heartfelt at 9:53 PM
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