Tuesday, November 24, 2009 :

all the things that we do.

if i were to rewind back,i wanna play the melody of my life all over again. however,you can never change this melody as it will remain the same even if you rewind and play it back again. how sad is that. once written on the tape it can never be erased it can only be rewinded in the mind and playback through your eyes. for you will imagine and force to believe this is the past and you can never change it.

i have been living for almost 18 years and never ever have i thought of what i would really really want to do. how long can we play and have fun. how long can we laugh at our sillyness and scratchourbackside till. i guess i need some life management skills to kinda sort out life.it would be a good module if school of IS to offer eh. i dont usually sit and spend quality time thinking about my future. or rather i like the talk now,think later feel uh.

i really hate night where i would think of the fun times i had,the sadness i cry for, the time i took to mend the broken heart.to think of everything from friends to families to happy and sad moments in life. it sucks doesnt it. you always want to hold great moments close your heart and place the unpleasant ones far from where our heart is. we sometimes do forget about the bad moments we have in life and we do sometimes manage to hide them,but for how long can we hide till we find them again. we cannot always have what we want for we would become selfish unthinking humans. the question lies,should i? a pretty easy question with a very difficult answer. never have i, found an answer to this. i should.

school's really something these few days. i dont know if i could cope with the piling work i have been abondoning for weeks and the sarcasm lecturers throw at me. i dont really take it to heart and take it as a joke.but i've got to come to senses that it aint a big fat joke.come on,wake up mannan.we got to pull through this. im determined to turn this mess around.

i wish i was stronger.



Eunice: hey,i enjoyed working alongside with you guys too.hope we had a great and memorable red camp 6!
Wenxing: yes son.lol!
PC: and how did you find scratchmybackside?
Jiayin: yep,i know im so nice to write here.haha! dont worry you guys will see more of me.i rebonded my front half of my head.heh! :)
Bel: yep i will soon :D


heartfelt at 12:51 AM

Capture the moments;
when its gone.