Saturday, June 6, 2009 :

goodbye,

i never imagined myself having to go through all these.i always wanted to be an adult,but this way too fast.time is going by so much faster than i thought.i just a lost a loved one and now i have to live through with responsibilities as a leader in my family.

woke up this morning with tiredness etched to my mind thinking about whys and hows.left for mortuary to identify my dad before all my relatives come to bring the body to pusara aman for normal muslim burial.a little talk with my dad's uncle,i then found out that he was from st andrews sec school.he said my dad was a smart guy and truly he is.i tried to hold back,putting a brave front.it seems impossible.i kissed dad for the last time,i cried.my dad is safely buried at pusara abadi cemetery.

theres a wisdom behind every tragedy.it brought me closer to my father side of the family.i never knew that i had a cousin who is in the 30s.i never knew my dad still has an uncle.it brought me much more closer to them.

my deepest gratitude to all my relatives who arranged everything and all the encouragement you gave me,to all my friends who cared and was there to hear me out.thanks for being there everyone.i will try to move on with life,as i close this chapter of my life.i will be strong and face the world.goodbye dad,i love you.

oh common tests are here,let it be over.im not prepared.

Capture the moments;
when its gone.