Saturday, April 4, 2009 :
inner beauty.
i procrastinated the facts,the facts that were there,
from the start of the journey,
never thought of giving up,
till the very last moment,
or should i say till the moment,
it came forth,
now i have to swallow it,
like a bitter pill down my throat.
a great friend told me back then,
you dont try,you wont know,
i told him i wanted to try,
but i already knew.
so wheres the meaning to it.
3 musketeers is what we call ourselves,
the fat,
the skinny,
and the build.
we were there for one another,
going through times of ups and downs together,
i thank GOD for them,
if not i would be some insane man,
running down memory lane.
we always have this heart to heart thing,
sharing sorrows and joys,
flows in us.
we treat each and everyone of us like brothers,
real brothers.
we supported one another,
giving a hand whenever one falls.
i am never confident in everything i do,
except for those easy ones.
never am i this pessimistic bout life,
this has been hard,really really hard,
but i must bear in mind that the world is unfair.
humans being prejudice to special humans,
a great friend told me back then,
to follow my heart was what he said.
i did follow,
i ended up in the wrong direction.
if theres anything in the world,
that can change people's heart,
i would gladly trade it for mine.
cause inner beauty seemed meaningless,
but without inner beauty,
being beautiful is pointless.
im not looking back in despair,
but to move on,
and never look back.
im calling it a day,
im quiting chasing.
it opened up,
the world inside me.
i am happy for a friend of mine,
for his door had been opened for him.
i hope he would treasure it,
and hold on till forever.
at times we had to give up something for something,
when we lose something,
we do gain something,
we gain the feeling of losing something.
writing what he thinks,
his pessimistic thought,
a writer that can never be good,
as his content was never,
to be understooded.
what was said could be,nonsensical,comical joke,
to him it was a feeling of thoughts.
deep down.
inner beauty,
i still do believe in it.
please dont jusdge,
based on my thoughts.
heartfelt at 2:48 AM
Capture the moments;
when its gone.
