Monday, April 20, 2009 :

if only.

if maybe my brain would stop,

thinking of negative thoughts,

only i would have an enjoyable day.

i smile outside,

frowning inside,

trying to reason out,

what went wrong.

issit that i think too much,

of stuffs which isnt supposed to happen?

or maybe the refusal to admit to acceptance?

to decide on my decisions,

i think i thought to myself.

i think im doing things right,

sometimes i feel im overdoing,

at times i dont feel that i have done a thing.

but why does it have to be this way,

or the other.

that i cannot understand.

i am just simply confused,

to make a decision,

or to confirm a thing,

but all i know is that,

i would not give up.

or maybe its reality time check.

oh wells.

heartfelt at 9:24 PM

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