Tuesday, February 17, 2009 :

fucking sad day.

hello readers.im in a dilemma and i plan to go on a hiatus for a moment.yesterday had been a really really bad day in this new year 2009.to start of with what happen to me,i went to barber to get my hair done.and i planned to do tribal to side of my head and it turned out to be checkered.now how sad is that.so brixton is gonna be my best friend for another 2 weeks till my hair grows out again.heh.

earlier went to school for the prep camp meeting.its held at changi beach.its like so far uh.out of the many only a few-ties turned up.during the meeting there were a few good laughs.with one of them being daniel afraid of ghost at changi beach.and wai cheong likes gays.heh.

so im right now at daniel's place getting shagged over dota and the rest asleep.i swear daniel place has so much junk food,that i would be a sumo wrestler if i live for a year here.had been munching potato chips,ferrero rocher,sweets and plain water for the past what 5 hours?sighs.earlier in the day went to chom chomp for great food.had so much food:stingray,carrot cake,bbq-ed chicken wings,western food and a huge glass of longan.i have not been gyming for quite sometime and i think im getting bigger.shall start hardcore anorexic soon.heh.

cheers.

-i sometimes wonder to myself,
why love must be forbidden,
cause of religion,
cause of looks,
cause of race.
why cant love consist,
of sincerity,
of understanding,
and acceptance

a good friend told me,
you dont try,you wont know.
i told him i wanted try,
but i already knew.
so where does the meaning go?

a talk with one of my best friend,
a long bus journey out from food paradise.
we talked bout how relationships affect friendships,
we talked bout how i would fair.
it did not turn out to be good.
as i expected i was never good enough.
a high standard person she was,
a person with great wealth,
neither am i exaggerating on the facts,
but jus laying the truths forth.

internet seems to link people,
from places to places.
i somehow linked to my friend ,
to the other side,
he told me to go all the way,
i was pessimistic,
i said it couldnt be,
another told me,
i would regret,
if i hadnt,
in the end.

the news was broken,
i understood it.
i knew i was right,
and yes i was.
so now i shall have no thought of it,
its not as if the world is gonna fail,
if things dont turn out right,
im asking nature for help,
to take its course,
and surely hoping one day,
it does turn out right.

how sad it is for love to be forbid,
due to differences in the two,
are the wedding bells gonna ring,
when we are old,
this question opens up,
the world inside me,
to think of the possiblity,
and the possibilty,
is opposite of me.

so we come to the end,
of another chapter,
where the writer,
just writes what he thinks,
and his pessimistic thought,
a writer that can never be good,
as his content was never,
to be understooded.
what was said could be,
nonsensical,comical joke,
to him it was a feeling of thoughts.
deep down.

please dont jusdge,
based on my thoughts.
do have a nice week ahead.







heartfelt at 4:54 AM

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