Saturday, January 24, 2009 :

to breathe the night air.

hello people,its great to be able to blog this space again after quite some time.so it has been more a bad week then a good one which i had thought of.a fast update of my changes.i got a mohawk done on my head.i think i look damn joke now.i had 20kg chest now.and am trying to weigh lighter than a ton.so on one of the days in the week,i accompanied grandma to get groceries before markets closes for the long weekend.and heres how the story begins.

"woke up feeling sleepy and lethargic.dragged this bulky body out of bed and into cold shower.moments later i was on the bus,into a journey where i learned more meanings of life.sat down in the coffeshop by the carrot cake seller.ordered a plate of mee siam and sat down with a glass of soya bean.the carrot cake seller occasional shouts to attract customers caught my attention.dressed in shirt and long pants he sat down and ate his plate of mee rebus which seemed to have been soggy as it was left untouched for a while.his face reminds me of people who were very tired of life and doing the same shit over and over again.a spoonful of noodles went down my gut,thinking of what i would want to be in the future.would i want to fry carrot cakes like that man or would i wanna be someone who works in the office.the man would have been there,every morning,selling his carrot cakes for the past 10 years or even 15.it might have been a routine which he didnt choose.i thought for some time before i finished my bowl of noodles and went off to the market."

so anyways had been doing gym stuff for a bit till my body wants to break down.had lots of thinking before i sleep on most of the days.somehow most of them seemed to be more of a problem than a solution.i very much want to shed tears,but we men dont cry.not at 17.you know its sometimes hard to hide everything and just keep on putting a fake smile which isnt sincere at all.but its better then having to trouble the people around you.but really thank GOD for giving me friends that realy care and understand.so on somedays,i was kinda abit sad,but i try not to show it for im not those emo kind.to me my grandma is my everything,then comes my friends.i can live without my family which had been happening,but i cant live without these two important people.

on friday night after gyming,went to meet the usuals at halo bar.didnt intend to stay for long but the fun and joy changed my mind.the guys ordered Johnie Walker,and they drank for abit.tasted like normal liquor ah.so we had so much fun from singing to playing 007 to chop chilli chop,with the loser having to drink half a cup of mixer.and those tipsy were victims.really had fun that night.

today went to get some stuff for CATS individual report and followed aizat cut hair.met up with the usuals plus maisie,kai xin,silin and jeremy(i think) for steamboat.had so much chicken and seafood.i guess its all worth it.went to decoders over at balmoral plaza for some boardgames session.so much fun,joy and laughter.how i wish every moment of my life would be like that.filled with laughters.sighs.

i will upload photos of these happenings and stuff a.s.a.p i get them from whoever.
have a long great weekend ahead.
to all the chinese community,
a very happy new year.
cheers. :)

p/s:do watch usavich.

-your not the raindrops that will save my wilted life,
your not the sunshine that will brighten my life,
you are just not the one.

heartfelt at 10:30 PM

Capture the moments;
when its gone.